FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART

You know that I'm a person of few words. I don't often say what is on my mind and even if I do, it usually doesn't come out quite right. But what I do not express verbally doesn't mean I don't feel it in my heart.

Lots of thing in my mind tonight...not just tonight but others also...I'm just holding on to it because I don't know who to talk about how I feel. I was so scared if I talk to you then you will mad at me and maybe you will think that I'm overreacting.. 

If you are going to judge me on these things alone, I know I have failed miserably. But if only you could look through my heart to see who it is beating for, you would know the depth of my love for you.

I just feel that you are not mine anymore.. I feel like I'm gonna losing you. I fell I feel like I'm not that important anymore in your life.  I know how you will react after you read this and I'm really sorry. I just don't know how to share anything with you cause you see so far away from me...I'm really sorry...

Every night i feel so lonely.. I miss you so much. but I can't do anything. I know it wasn't your fault if I feel that way but sometimes I miss to talk and sharing everything with you. I miss our long talk. But I know you're not a big fan of having a long cit chat on the phone cause it's really not your thing. I'm trying my best to deal with it. 

I really don't like being apart from you. I really want you to be here with me so I can touch you, kiss you, hug you, and do everything with you.

There's those time when I feel like nothing could possibly go on my way. I try so hard to get through this things. I lost, I scared, alone and I can't take it anymore. I wish I could just stop to think about it cause what I really want is to see you happy and I would do anything for you just don't push me back from your life. I would never love someone as much as I love you. 

As I write this today, the words are hard to flow. It is not my nature to be expressive. But no matter what, I want you to know that you are loved and cherished. And I want you to know that I do care. My words will never be able to describe exactly how I feel so, let me end this letter with 3 simple words, straight from my heart:

I love you.

Forever yours ... 

nazianadila

23feb2012

0304am